boldlygoingnowhere

2002-07-19T22:33:00.000-07:00

this is just to test that's instructions..

2002-07-17T04:57:00.000-07:00

You said you're burnin' up inside, and no one seems to tell.
Your living from a personalized manual from hell.
Life seems pretty easy when it's from my easy chair.
And you're burnin' up inside and no one's cares.

You said you had enough this time, this town don't treat you well.
You always find coincidence, well I do parallel.

Come and take my hand tonight, I'll show you where to start.
'Cuz every word that left your lips,went like a needle through my heart

2002-07-12T22:46:00.000-07:00

You can't fight the tears that ain't coming,or the moment of truth in your lies.
When everything feels like the movies,yeah you'd bleed just to know you're alive...

iris..goo goo dolls

2002-07-12T21:23:00.000-07:00

Spending time with an ex can be something apart from the disaster i'd initially thought it would be.starting to see he's like any other guy afterall.Once u've gotten a person off the whole 'relationship' pedestal it makes it a lot easier to deal with things.And makes u see that sometimes you should be gald u don't get everything u ask for.

2002-07-06T05:48:00.000-07:00

closure at last...all thanx to the shock bottle.

2002-07-03T08:28:00.000-07:00

oh yeah...adi's webster...permanent fixture on her bed..i remember that.why do i suddenly feel homesick?

2002-07-03T08:16:00.000-07:00

back again.haven't felt so totally at ease in a long long time...people,things,everything going my way.thank you thank you thank you.

2002-06-17T21:21:00.000-07:00

its funny how life turns out....if you ever had a chance,would you do it all again....??

2002-06-11T05:57:00.000-07:00

awesome,awesome weekend with kablooie and rajiv.miss u ppl

2002-06-06T07:56:00.000-07:00

ok i know i said i was gonna keep this blog clean for a while but this one's just too funny...
PENIS REQUEST FOR RAISE:
I, the Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the following reasons:
1) do physical labour.
2) work at great depths.
3) plunge head first into everything I do.
4) do not get weekends or public holidays off.
5) work in a damp environment.
6) work in a dark workplace that has poor ventilation.
7) work in high temperatures.
8) get exposed to contagious diseases

Dear Penis
After assessing your request, and considering the arguments you have raised,
the administration rejects your request for the following reasons:
1) You do not work 8 hours straight.
2) You fall asleep after brief work periods.
3) You do not always follow the orders of the management team.
4) You do not stay in your designated area and are often seen visiting
other
locations.
5) You do not take initiative - you need to be pressured and stimulated in
order to start working.
6) You leave the workplace rather messy at the end of your shift.
7) You don't always observe necessary safety regulations, such as wearing
the correct protective clothing.
8) You will retire well before you are 65.
9) You are unable to work double shifts.
10) You sometimes leave your designated work area before you have
completed
the assigned task.

And if that were not all, you have been seen constantly entering and
exiting
the work place carrying two suspicious-looking bags.

Sincerely
The Management

2002-06-05T07:24:00.000-07:00

Pull me under
run through my veins
to a place
where i feel no pain
Be the pillow under my head
give me cover when i'm in my bed
take me higher than i've ever been
take me down and back again
come to me,be my disguise
open your coat let me crawl inside
come on

2002-06-05T07:08:00.000-07:00

my blog's starting to sound a shade pornographic of late.need to keep the dirty thoughts away from it for a while.
anyway no offence balu but have u seen foolmaker's blog lately?.....what's grosser than that???

2002-06-04T06:20:00.000-07:00

marksheet's are out...did pretty well.more than i'd expected anyway...and got my first steth today too.feel like a real doctor finally...even if i just deal with ugly teeth and smelly mouths.

2002-06-04T06:10:00.000-07:00

A girls first time!!!!
You are a girl (assume you are a girl if you are a boy ) and it's your first time. As you lie back your muscles tighten.You put him off for a while searching for an excuse, but he refuses to be swayed as he approaches you.

He asks if you're afraid and you shake your head bravely. He has had more experience, but it's the first time his finger has found the right place. He probes deeply and you shiver; your body tenses; but he's gentle like he promised he'd be. He looks deeply within your eyes and tells you to trust him--he's done this many times before.

His cool smile relaxes you and you open wider to give him more room for an ease entrance. You begin to plead and beg him to hurry, but he slowly takes his time, wanting to cause you as little pain as possible. As he presses closer, going deeper, you feel the tissue give way; pain surges throughout your body and you feel the slight trickle of blood as he continues. He looks at you! concerned and asks you if it's too painful.

Your eyes are filled with tears but you shake your head and nod for him to go on. He begins going in and out with skill but you are now too numb to feel him within you. After a few moments, you feel something bursting within you and he pulls it out of you, you lay panting, glad to have it over. He looks at you and smiling warmly, tells you, with a chuckle; that you have been his most stubborn yet most rewarding experience.

You then smile and thank your dentist... After all, it was your first time to have a tooth pulled. What were you thinking? PERVERT! I know what you were thinking!

been plagued with dentist jokes ever since i decided to become one...just another occupational hazard....
this one's the latest....

2002-06-04T05:52:00.000-07:00

but sometimes,somethings turn into dumb things.and thats when i put my foot down....

2002-06-02T07:06:00.000-07:00

college reopens tommorrow....where'd my vacation go???

2002-06-02T06:43:00.000-07:00

this chick's just too kool...another virgo too no less.

2002-05-24T23:59:00.000-07:00

There's a new medical crisis. Doctors are reporting that many men are having allergic reactions to latex condoms. They say they cause severe swelling.
So what's the problem?

2002-05-21T19:42:00.000-07:00

you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.(?!!?) ....whatever works for you dude.

2002-05-20T10:43:00.000-07:00

A closed mouth gathers no foot....must remember that.

2002-05-17T00:29:00.000-07:00

THE BEST CHAIN LETTER EVER:
Hello, my name is Carol and I suffer
from the guilt of not
forwarding
50 billion fucking chain letters sent to
me by people who actually
believe
that if you send them on, a poor
6-year-old girl in Arkansas with
a
breast
on her forehead will be able to raise
enough money to have it
removed
before
her redneck parents sell her to a
traveling freak show.
Do you honestly believe that Bill Gates
is going to give you, and
everyone
to whom you send "his" email, $1000? How
stupid are we? "Ooooh,
looky
here!
If I scroll down this page and make a
wish, I'll get laid by every
good
looking model in the magazine!" What a
bunch of bullshit.

Basically, this message is a big KISS MY
ROSEY RED ASS to all the
people out
there who have nothing better to do than
to send me stupid chain
mail
forwards.

Maybe the evil chain letter leprechauns
will come into my house
and
sodomize
me in my sleep for not continuing a
chain that was started by
Peter
in 5 AD
and brought to this country by midget
pilgrims on the Mayflower.
Fuck them.

If you're going to forward something, at
least send me something
mildly
amusing. I've seen all the "send this to
10 of your closest
friends,
and
this poor, wretched excuse for a human
being will somehow receive
a
nickel
from some omniscient being" forwards
about 900 times!! I don't fucking care.
Show a little intelligence and think about what you're actually
contributing
to by sending out these forwards.
Chances are, it's your own
unpopularity.
The point being? If you get some chain
letter that's threatening
to
leave
you shagless or luckless for the rest of
your life, delete it. If
it's
funny, send it on. Don't piss people off
by making them feel
guilty
about a
leper in Botswana with no teeth who has
been tied to a dead
elephant
for 27
years and whose only salvation is the 5
cents per letter he'll
receive if
you forward this email.
Now forward this to everyone you know.
Otherwise, tomorrow morning
your
underwear will turn carnivorous and will
consume your genitals.

2002-05-17T00:17:00.000-07:00

It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to serve as a bad example.

2002-05-17T00:12:00.000-07:00

back in chennai.i miss hyd.so so so so much.wanna go back.and ice,like that says...i'd say anytime,but....
u know we love u babe.miss u loads.

2002-05-03T08:14:00.000-07:00

Stoned!!!!

2002-05-03T08:13:00.000-07:00

evil one gets last laugh.

2002-04-29T20:09:00.000-07:00

back home.got the next 2 weeks here in hyderabad.

2002-04-29T20:07:00.000-07:00

the farther i go,the closer u get...

2002-04-23T20:43:00.000-07:00

needing someone is like needing a parachute...if he isn't there the first time,chances are u won't be needing him again.
....Dilbert

2002-04-19T07:43:00.000-07:00

seem to be having all these 'big days' all together suddenly.been with my boyfriend for a year and a half as of today..i kind of have these thing for dates- all these special times that i associate all the cool events of my life with.hard to believe i've stayed in love with the same guy for so long...knowing me,thats really going some.u know what they say about finding the right person...think this is it.

2002-04-16T19:28:00.000-07:00

today's 2 years since i moved here.doesn't seem like its been so long since i left hyderabad...miss the place a lot more suddenly

2002-04-16T19:06:00.000-07:00

watched harry potter last nite...much after most people i know, but what a movie! still think reading the book was cooler, but maybe i'm just wierd like that

2002-04-15T11:07:00.000-07:00

back from b'lore.what a trip man! life's getting too filmi for my taste.but lets not get into that now.the cool part was the concert-pretty good...and with the largest gathering of grass smokers i've seen in a long time.could smell it from 500 mt away.and got to meet aamir khan at some promo thingy for his oscar-nominated movie.and...here's the best part...got chosen by the MTV vj hunt people for the contest.not that i did anything about it...i prefer my life the boring way it is..but it definately did wonders for my ego:-).gonna be outta here again soon.going to hyd in a coupla weeks..can't wait.dying to get outta chennai again-the heat's absolute murder.

2002-04-09T22:16:00.000-07:00

univs all done-FINALLY!!!i'm back among the living.no more cramming non-stop..atleast for the next couple of months.managed to survive with an almost non-existant social life for almost 4 weeks!did well ultimately so its worth it.off to b'lore in a coupla hours.worked hard,now time to party hard:-).probably catch the roger waters concert while i'm there.not much of a floyd fan,but mk is..and i owe him-he's been such a sweetheart recently.

2002-03-22T20:54:00.000-08:00

-why do men become smarter during sex? ... because they're plugged into a genius
-why did God put men on earth? ...because a vibrator can't mow the lawn
-why does it take a million sperm to fertilise an egg? ...because they dont stop and ask for directions..
-why do men masturbate? ...its sex with someone they love
-why don't women have men's brains? ...because they don't have penises to put them in
HEHEHEH..ok i'll stop -altho' i must say this was sent to me by a bloke.

2002-03-22T08:50:00.000-08:00

what a day....still reeling.but atleast it had the right kind of effect on the people intended. ahhhh...the ego gratification!! heheh

2002-03-22T06:37:00.000-08:00

never imagined that scrawny little lunatic would be such a pain-in-the-u-know-what!!! i'd wring her manic neck but then she'd come back to haunt me. i'm fond of her in a way-she's got personality inspite of all her madness.still...wish she'd take a nice long vacation somewhere far off....

2002-03-20T08:26:00.000-08:00

just a temporary mental abberation i'm sure.it'll be okay-i think.

2002-03-20T08:20:00.000-08:00

this is for my two best(est) buddies-u know who u are.thanx for today-i feel human again.i love u two.
p.s:think u guys could just move here--please?

2002-03-17T20:54:00.000-08:00

i feel like i'm diagonally parked in a parallel universe.....

2002-03-17T20:44:00.000-08:00

honesty is the key to a relationship.if u can fake that,u'r in.

2002-03-16T05:55:00.000-08:00

i'm so hyper today-dunno why.getting sick of sitting around doing nuthing.(although there's plenty i shoiuld be doing at the mo' )too much coffee i think.me gonna get my ass to the gym.gotta work off some of this hyperness-maybe then i'll be more in a mood to do something useful with myself

2002-03-16T05:43:00.000-08:00

okey......me back.been neck-deep in work.really crappy boring aaarrrrggghh!!! work .but nuff of that.my buddy's getting married.just met her fiance-and totally adore him.'cept for the fact that he's taking her away to another continent and i'll get to see her next to never and i'm gonna miss her so bloody much.but she's gonna have an awesome time with an awesome dude and i'm really happy for her.i'll miss u tho' subbu.'specially every time i eat pasta at bellaciao.that joint's gonna go out of business without u around .

2002-03-14T08:48:00.000-08:00

been neglecting the world too much.

2002-03-09T21:03:00.000-08:00

back after the model xams.nope,they did absolutely nothing to make me feel more confident about the finals.if anything i'm shitting bricks now darlin'.
hey talking abt xams.... BEST OF LUCK Adi and Ice .go kick ass babes.

2002-03-02T20:51:00.000-08:00

Ferrari wins again.Schum-ey rocks baby!

2002-03-02T18:23:00.000-08:00

should be studying....somehow this whole self-motivation thingy never really worked with me.

2002-03-02T18:13:00.000-08:00

anyone watch the moon last nite?it was so beautiful.din't mean to get all poetic early in the morning but there was something almost hypnotic about it.don't know for sure if it was just the moon or the company that made it so profound.but haven't felt that moved by something i see almost everyday in a long,long time.

2002-03-01T21:11:00.000-08:00

when all else fails, try chocolate.gives soul food a whole new meaning babe.the gooey-er,the better.

2002-03-01T19:49:00.000-08:00

need a change of scene-like different place,different people(no offence,all u folx here.) but dunno how i'm gonna do that. no time, no money-i'm broke and getting broke-er.anyone wanna help??

2002-03-01T19:43:00.000-08:00

LIFE OVERLOAD!!

2002-02-28T02:02:00.000-08:00

DAYAM!!how'd this happen???

2002-02-24T08:58:00.000-08:00

my dad's in town.wanted to crawl onto his lap and bawl my heart out.wish i did.

2002-02-24T08:48:00.000-08:00

something from a friend's friend's blog....thought it was so purrrrrrfect!!!
A LITTLE OFFICE PRAYER
grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i cannot accept
and the wisdom
to hide the bodies of those people i had to kill today
because they pissed me off.
and also,
help me to be careful of the toes i step on today as they may be connected to the ass i may have to kiss tommorrow....

2002-02-24T08:35:00.000-08:00

some bad habits die hard.wonder when i'll ever learn.

2002-02-24T00:23:00.000-08:00

i miss him..with all my heart.just wish i could have given him more of the kind of friendship he needed.i've felt so much around this guy.from the most frivolous 'what a babe!' kind of crush on a very sexy(and very forbidden) older guy to just gratitude for being there for me at the most painful,bitter time of my life.wanting nothing from me but the one thing i can never give him.its funny..you can care for someone with everything you have and still never be able to give them what they want.as corny and lame as this is going to sound baby, i'm grateful i had chance to know someone like you.hope you're happy wherever you are doing whatever you do best.

2002-02-21T22:16:00.000-08:00

got my univs coming up in about a month.PANIC-ALERT!

2002-02-21T22:14:00.000-08:00

my blog's suddenly too full of whining...gotta quit doin' that.
my life's actually starting to look up for a bit...fun-wise.now work-wise...that's a different story.talking of work-better get down to doin' some now.

2002-02-17T01:57:00.000-08:00

i need to get out of here...like disappear for a while without leaving a forwarding address.my life's getting a little too much for me to handle-think i'm starting to go insane...

2002-02-17T01:50:00.000-08:00

Jinxed!!!!

2002-02-15T09:00:00.000-08:00

starting to wonder if this is all part of some great cosmic joke being played on me....

2002-02-15T08:54:00.000-08:00

happy post-valentine's people.hope you'll had a lot of fun and a lot of lovin'.

2002-02-09T07:12:00.000-08:00

this blog's so bloody perfect for me--that's exactly where my life's going....nowhere!

2002-02-02T11:47:00.000-08:00

was at geoffrey's-the newest joint in town.pretty chilled out-guess its 'the place' to get drunk and happy now.and who should walk in today just after us but the vice-chancellor of my college.uh-oh!-like big time UH-OH.but the guy was probably too drunk himself to give two shits about how many of his students were hanging out there tonite.(at least most of us pretty desperately hope so).

2002-02-02T11:32:00.000-08:00

am i drunk??no,not really.not too much anyway.finding it impossible to think-all i know is that he means too much-way too much to take any chances with.love does that to you sometimes-screws your head and more than screws your heart.this isn't how its meant to be-when you love somebody as completely as this,life's supposed to be all about togetherness and tenderness-hurt shouldn't be part of the picture...if only real life was like that..

2002-01-28T05:26:00.000-08:00

Sistahs-you'll love this one.
GirlPoem
i shave my legs,i sit down to pee
and i can justify any shopping spree
don't go to a barber but a beauty salon
i can get a massage without a hard-on
i can balance the checkbook,i can pump my own gas
i can talk to my friends about the size of my ass
my beauty's a masterpiece and yes it takes long
atleast i can admit to others when i'm wrong
i don't drive in circles at any cost
and i don't have a problem admitting i'm lost
i never forget an important date
you just gotta deal with it,i'm sometimes late
i don't watch movies with lots of gore
don't need instant replay to remember the score
i won't lose my hair,i don't get ball itch
and just cause i'm assertive don't call me a bitch
don't say to your friends-"oh yeah, i can get her"
in your dreams my dear,i can do better!
flowers are okay,but jewellery's best
would you look at my face and not at my chest?
i don't have a problem with expressing my feelings
i know when you're lying-you look at the ceiling.
don't call me a bird, a babe or a chick.
i'm a Woman-get it you prick?!

2002-01-26T03:33:00.000-08:00

i feel drunk but i'm sober
i'm young and i'm under pain
i'm tired but i'm workin' yeah.
i care but i'm restless
i'm here but i'm really gone
i'm wrong and i'm sorry baby
--alanis morrisette--one hand in my pocket

2002-01-20T00:27:00.000-08:00

funny how we set qualifications for the right person to love when at the back of our minds we know that the person we truly love will always be an exception.

2002-01-19T07:06:00.000-08:00

forget the health food.i need all the preservatives i can get.

2002-01-19T03:52:00.000-08:00

i think this is true love.

2002-01-15T21:39:00.000-08:00

back to the grind.

2002-01-13T07:17:00.000-08:00

ever get the funny feeling the universe is smiling at you?what happened today makes me feel like maybe i'm doing something right afterall.

2002-01-13T07:04:00.000-08:00

at home at last!feels good to be back in hyderabad. looking back i wonder why i thought this place was too quiet for me.after the constant 'hyper-ness' that seems to be part of my life in chennai, the laidback ease here seems sooooo wonderfully appealing all of a sudden(guess its true what they say about the grass being greener on the other side).still wish i had a little more time here.gotta get back to chennai tommorrow.dreading it big time.the only thing stopping me from postponing my return indefinately is that i miss my man a little too much.
can't wait for the next chance i get to be back here.something about this city just totally revives me-flagging spirits and all.

2002-01-05T04:37:00.000-08:00

can't get over what happened today.still dunno how i ended up being in this situation but came scarily close to being jacked by one of my toughest departments in college.i've been pushing my luck way too much with way too many people lately.managed to squirm my way outta this one but i've gotta stop.better get a grip and get a life before i find myself in some serious trouble.trouble at home's one thing, messing around in college-'specially one like mine with all its f*cked up politics is another.
glad i got out of this one with no damage done but gotta be more careful i guess-considering i desperately need to get my degree and get the hell out of there in as little time as possible.four and a half years in med school studying dentistry is bad enuf-the last thing i need now is to end up with arrears and muck-ups thanx to some blowhead of a professor with a midlife crisis deciding to give me hell 'coz i dont kiss his ass as much as he'd like me to. gotta stay outta these messes from now on.

2002-01-05T04:07:00.000-08:00

life's a one way street---my way!;-p

2002-01-03T05:00:00.000-08:00

there should be a better way to start a day than waking up every morning.
wish i could just block the world out for a few days and hibernate or something.

2002-01-03T04:52:00.000-08:00

i believe in reincarnation.it would take more than one life to make somebody so perfect. ;-)

2001-12-31T23:06:00.000-08:00

was the most amazing new year's eve.partied on the beach all night,watched the sunrise with people i love, partied some more,had the oiliest burger i've ever experienced in my life for breakfast-(but who's complaining),got back home at 7:30 and got jacked and grounded till college opens again.but i'm getting used to it-after being stuck at home for 8 days straight what diff would 2 more days make.and last nite was so worth it.too happy now to be low about anything. gotta stop cussing so much tho'...getting me into more trouble than usual-and that's a lot at the best of times.so there's another resolution to try to keep--no swearing-atleast not within hearing distance of the folks.guess they deserve their peace too.

2001-12-31T22:49:00.000-08:00

new year resolutions??
start studying for the univs NOW!!!
put an end to all the binges i've been giving into all season
spend all the time i get with my man having fun instead of spending half that time arguing
is this set going to end up the same way all my new year's resolutions do?u never know-watch this space...

2001-12-31T22:41:00.000-08:00

happy new year to everyone!:-) hope the fun never stops this year

2001-12-30T08:10:00.000-08:00

had a song dedicated to me on FMradio today by a friend.feeling soooooo on top of the world.what a pal and what a song....and what timing.what a bad-mood buster man.feel in love with the world again.

2001-12-28T23:01:00.000-08:00

the average chocolate bar has 8 insect legs in it.....so was that supposed to make me stop eating chocolate??

2001-12-28T22:48:00.000-08:00

have you ever watched kids play on a merry-go-round
or listened to rain lapping on the ground?
ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight
or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

you'd better slow down,don't dance so fast
time is short,the music wont last.

do you run through each day on the fly?
when you ask 'how are you?' ,do you hear the reply?

when the day is done,do you lie in bed
with the next hundred chores running through your head?

you'd better slow down,don't dance so fast
time is short,the music wont last.

ever told your child 'we'll do it tommorrow'
and in you're haste not see his sorrow?

ever lost touch,let a good friendship die
because you din't have time to call and say 'hi'?

you'd better slow down,don't dance so fast
time is short,the music wont last.

when you run so fast to get somewhere,
you miss half the fun of getting there
when you worry and hurry through your day,
its like an unopened gift....
thrown away....

life isn't a race
do take it slower.
hear the music
before the song is over.

2001-12-28T09:00:00.000-08:00

show me some lovin' people.dunno if i deserve it but i definately need it

2001-12-25T22:29:00.000-08:00

smile and the world smiles with you...frown and you'll finally have some peace and privacy.
--the diabolical dictionary of modern english.

2001-12-25T22:16:00.000-08:00

just found a bunch of stuff that soooooo matches my cynical state of mind now ...
-never go to bed mad.stay up and fight.
_phyllis diller
-the secret of a happy marriage remains a secret
_henry youngman
-my wife and i were happy for 20 years.then we met.
_rodney dangerfield
--after a fight a husband said to his wife..'i was a fool when i married you.the wife replied..'i know but i was in love then and i didn't notice'
-getting married is like going to a restaurant with friends.you order what you want.then you see what the other fellow has and wish u'd taken that instead.
-somebody once said..'i never knew what real happiness was untill i got married-by then it was too late.
-man is incomplete till he's married...then he is finished.
-a woman was telling her friend-'i made my husband a millionaire.the friend asked-'what was he before you married him?' 'a billionaire' the woman replied.
-i married mr. right.i just didn't know his first name was 'always'.
-first guy(proudly)-'my mom's an angel'
second guy-'you're lucky-mine's still alive'.
-marriage is the triumph of imagination over intelligence.
second marriage is the triumph of hope over experience.
-a man upon his engagement went to his father and said-'dad i've found a woman just like mother'the father replies-'so what do you want-sympathy?'
-a little girl asks her father-'daddy how much does it cost to get married?'the father replied-'i dont know sweetheart-i'm still paying.'
-'i haven't spoken to my wife in 18 months-i dont like to interrupt her'.
-young son:'is it true that in some parts of africa, a man and woman don't know each other till they're married?'
parent:'that happens in every country son'
-just think, if it weren't for marriage, men would go thru' life thinking they had no faults at all.

2001-12-25T21:31:00.000-08:00

as some one very close to me puts it...'Let The Middle Finger Linger'

2001-12-25T21:15:00.000-08:00

never thought this would ever come out of my mouth but BAH HUMBUG!!so much for looking forward to christmas all week.
for some reason the ruling force in my life seems to be that if i do have an amazingly good time it just has to be followed by way more amazingly pathetic after effects.right now i'm beginning to wish things would stay consistently boring and un-happening in my life-atleast there wouldn't be the ever looming anticipation of what's going to come crashing down on me next. and no i'm not being a pessimistic,cynical loser -or maybe i am.but this is reality.how else can u explain that after the most wonderful time ever on christmas eve i've had in the last 4 years, my holiday trip gets cancelled, my phone gets locked away and my discman explodes.dont think i'll ever get over the sad departure of my precious cd player but i'll live.and here's what takes the cake--i dont know why!!!! people _(read my mom)dont believe in enlightening me about what exactly i've done wrong to bring this scene of events onto myself.AAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dunno whether i should laugh or cry or check myself into some psychiatry ward.

2001-12-24T02:32:00.000-08:00

your family won't always be there for you.it may seem funny but people you aren't related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again.families aren't biological.
and where'd i be without my non-biological family?don't think i have the strength today to even ponder over that.can't wait to sink into that battered beanbag across from my closest pal and down that butterscotch icecream knowing she's there and always will be.knowing that while her answers may not be the ultimate solution for my situation, her support will still help me survive this...and probably more of the insanities i seem to be so good at bringing into my life.
its surprising how that one phone call and knowing that she's on her way here could suddenly make it seem like i just might win this tussle with my life and sanity afterall.and even if i don't,it'll be easier to get on with things....just knowing that these people care.

2001-12-24T02:05:00.000-08:00

so many men,so little asprin.....